chapter 2

* You know I think I could have picked a better time to visit the Magic Box.* As Willow looked into the store she could see all of her friends. * Shit they are ex friends, but they look kind of dejected. Oh well here goes nothing.*

The chime to the door twinkled as Willow opened the door. Anya looked up and gave a tiny smile. She still liked the girl. Maybe even more than before because of the whole vengeance thing.

Without looking at the others in the store she went straight to Anya. "Hey, I suppose you know I am leaving to England tomarrow huh? I just came by to let you know that you can write letters if you want. I know you have been nicer to mee this last month. More than I deserved," at that Willow looked at the ground still ashamed about trying to end the world.

Anya Chuckled a little. " No worries. You know I am suprised D'Hoffryn hasn't visited you."

Willow laughed out loud, "Actually he visited me last night." Willow laughed a little more and Anya gave a chuckle as well. Buffy, Xander, Dawn, and Giles had mild looks of shock on their faces.

"Well I am going to head out. I still have a couple of more places to go. Thanks Ayna," Willow gave her a wistful smile that didn't exactly reach her eyes and exited the store.

Anya looked over to the others and realised they are beginning to understand that they messed up in the way they handled Willow.

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"Hey Tare," Willow stroked the headstone where Tara's name was at wishing it was actually her girlfriend she was touching and not sun heated stone. "Looks like I am finally going to learn how to control my power," tears start to come out slowly then turn into a miniature waterfall the longer she sits there. " I am so sorry baby that I messed up and that we couldn't have more time together. I love you so much." Willow couldn't say anymore as the sobs began to be too much for her to talk around. Willow dozed off leaning against the stone.

~~(Dream)~~

Willow was sitting on a bench in the Sunnydale park. Only she noticed that it wasn't really the park and that she must have dozed of while crying. Willow put her head in her hands and started to cry some more.

"Tara I miss you soooo much baby."

"I know."

Willow jerked up and turned around. What she saw made her knees go weak and she hit the ground. Tara ran over to Willow and knelt down and held her.

"Shhhh baby it's going to be alright."

"It's never going to be alright. I don't have you with me." Willow started to sob some more.

Tara started to rub Willow's back lightly trying to calm her down. She leaned down and placed a soft kiss on Willow's forehead losing some tears of her own. "I don't have much time baby. I have to warn you. Something really bad is after you right now. Those people are going to help you, but you must also help them. They are not strong enough and haven't faced as much danger as you have. They are going to need your help as much as you are going to need them."

Willow looked up into Tara's eyes, "I don't know. I do more harm than good when I am around people. I am a bad person." Willow hung her head looking at the ground with a stream of more tears coming out.

Tara reached out her hand and tipped up Willow's face so she could look into her eyes, "Oh baby you are not bad. I love you so much." Tara leaned down and gave Willow a small peck on the lips. "I have to go now baby. This was the only way to see you again and they didn't give me long. I am going to miss you so much. I will always be with you even though you will not be able to see me and I am always going to love you."

Willow and Tara held each other sobbing into each others shoulders. They looked at each other knowing that this was going to be the last time they saw each other for a long time to come.

Tara and Willow simultaniously leaned forward and gently kissed each others lips. Willow opened her mouth a little and nipped at Tara's lower lip then licked it. Tara gasped a little and opened her mouth and slid her tongue into Willow's mouth tasting her for the last time. Willow slowly sucked on Tara's tongue drawing it into her mouth. She stopped sucking on Tara's tongue and started to play with it pouring all her feelings and energy into the kiss. They slowly let the kiss go and leaned their forheads angainst the others.

"Always and forever?"

"Always and forever," the other confirmed.

There was a bright light and then they were no longer there.

~~(Heaven)~~

Tara looked down at Willow laying against the headstone and gave a tearful smile. *Things will get better baby I promise. You just have to pay attention.* More tears started to fall down her face and she closed her eyes blocking the last sight of Willow. She felt a pressence behind her and turned around. It was her mother.

"Lets go Tara. You will see her again."

Tara nodded her head and went into her mother's arms. They slowly fadded into the bright light and were gone.

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Willow bolted awake sobbing. As her cries lessened she noticed it was dark and and heaved a great sigh. * Well this teaches me to go and doze off in a graveyard.* Willow placed a small kiss on Tara's name and slowly stood up. She looked down at the gravestone for a long time before remembering about the things that go bump in the night.

*Speaking of things that go bump in the night, I wonder where Spike is? He has always been nice to me, well in an abstract demon-y sort of way.*

Willow slowly turned around and walked away looking at the ground as she went not paying attention to anything. Thats when she bumped into something and fell to the ground.

*Shit this is deffinently not of the good. Way to go meals on wheels, we now deliver.* Willow berated herself.

Spike looked down and smirked sadly at the girl. He then schooled his features into a tipical Spike smirk. "Looky what we have here. I didn't know they were delivering to the cemetaries now. Too bad I can't have a taste though. What the hell you doin' out here luv?"

Willow sighed in relief that it was Spike that she had bumped into. * Although I wonder if its a good thing or bad.* Willow laughed to herself and stood up. "I was saying goodbye." Willow looked back a few rows to where the headstone lay.

"Why are ya sayin' goodbye pet? You can see her tomarrow."

"No I can't. I am leaving tomarrow for England. I don't know how long I will be there." Willow sighed and looked back at Spike. "You were my next stop, but seeing as how I bumped into you no need to go looking for you. Want to walk me home Spike. I don't think I could handle anything attacking right now. Just got a dream from the PTB with Tara in it. It's kinda thrown me."

"Alright luv. Been watchin' you anyhow since the sun went down. Don't want my favorite Red to get turned by a lowly minion. When I get my chip out I seriously am going to turn you pet. No minion for you. Your going to be a Master and my Childe."

Willow just laughed and shook her head. Spike held out his arm and Willow took it, walking back to Willow's house.

"Now tell me luv, what's this about leavin me here with the wankers?"

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Hermione sat in the empty compartment on the train thinking about tomarrow. She was slightly nervous about meeting Willow. They were going to meet at the Leaky Cauldron in the evening and then go back to her house the next morning. She didn't know what to think and was shifting around nervously. The boys had noticed and decided to go find Ginny and see how she was doing for a little bit to give her some time alone. Well mostly Harry had just grabbed Ron's arm and hauled him out the door.

Hermione noticed that the train started to slow down and realised they must be nearing King's Cross. *Might as well change while I have the compartment to myself.*

As soon as she finished the boys came back to grab their things. Harry looked over at Hermione wondering what was bothering her. She had been like this for the past week but wouldn't tell them anything. Harry looked directly into her eyes and she shifted and looked away. Now he knew she was keeping something from them.

"Hermione what is it?! You won't even look me in the eye," stated Harry.

Ron just stood there looking between the two wondering if he should say anything but then thought he better not. *If I say something she might not talk to us. I always seem to say the wrong things when wanting her to talk.*

Hermione looked back at Harry and sighed. "You are right, I have been hiding something. I won't be able to visit either one of you this summer at all." At this both boys wanted to protest but Hermione cut in before they could say anything, " I know I said I could spend the last week of summer with you two but something came up. I am going to be tutoring a transfer student all summer long and she will be living at my house. Lets go I will explain more when we get off the train."

Ron and Harry hadn't even noticed that the train had stopped. They grabbed their trunks and owls and followed behind Hermione.

As soon as they stepped off Ron turned Hermione around.

"Why didn't you tell us anything? We made plans Hermione!" Yelled Ron, his face turning slightly red.

Hermione sighed once again," I didn't tell you because I just found out recently myself," she said hotly. "I was asked Monday night when I was sent to Dumbledore's office. I would have told you that night but I needed time to think about it." Hermione looked around and saw her parents standing a little ways away and looking at her. "Look I have to go. My parents are over there waiting for me. I will owl you two later in the week once the transfer student has settled in. Maybe you two could write her a small letter."

Harry just sort of looked at her funny. He knew she told the the truth but he got the funny feeling that it wasn't everything. *Must be a good reason. Oh well we will find out when we come back to school.*

Ron just nodded his head not wanting to open his mouth and say something stupid.

Hermione hugged them then walked off to join her parents and go home.

Harry looked over to Ron and patted him on the shoulder. "Come on its time to go. Besides you can visit me when I get me a flat later this summer."

"Alright mate. Will it be safe?" asked Ron.

Harry nodded his head, "Yeah Dumbledore is going to make it unplottable."

Ron nodded and gave him a small hug. "Later mate."

"Later Ron."

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*Shit my head hurts. Thats the last time I fall asleep while having a crying jag.* Willow started to stretch her arms and then remembered that she was going to London today. *Oh shit I don't think I am ready for this.* Willow started to panic and run around the room trying to pack and find comfortable traveling clothes at the same time. Safe to say her old room turned into a war zone quick like.

Willow heard a chuckling laughter at the door and paused. She spun around to see Spike laughing at her. She stuck her tongue out at him and then continued trying to get ready. "Aren't you supposed to be the sleeping corpse right now?"

"Ouch pet that hurt," mocked Spike.

Just as Willow was about to say something the doorbell rang. She looked up at Spike and turned white.*So not ready for this.*

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