Title: For Him

Author: Chris Brook (wormbait@netspace.net.au)

Rating: FR 13

Pairing: Willow/Xander (Of sorts)

Disclaimer: I own no part of the Buffy world, nor do I make a penny from my efforts.

Synopsis: Why she didn’t do it.

Notes: Takes place after season six final episode.



They all seemed to think that I had come to my senses, that I had realised that my attempt to end the world had been a bad thing, an evil thing to even contemplate. They thought that when it came down to it I just hadn’t been able to destroy it all, kill all those billions of innocent people.

But it was not for the billions of people that I had stopped, because I could still feel all the pain and misery and fear and corruption that all those people hid from the rest of the world, just as I could still feel the pain of the Earth itself, the hurts dealt by those same oh so innocent humans.

No, it was for one person that I had stopped. One shy, shaggy haired young man who carried the last few minute slivers of my heart in his childlike yet battle scarred hands. He was like my twin, joined at the soul and it was for him and him alone that everyone else got to live. I just couldn't hurt my Xander.

And so now I watch, from by his side or from across a room, through scrying crystals and spells when I can not be there in person. I will look out for him, protect him and do everything in my power, my quite considerable power, to ensure that he has as long and happy a life as is possible.

But on that day when he eventually passes on to rest with Jesse and my beloved Tara, on that day will I finally end the suffering, end the pain and the hurt and the deceit. On that day I will send the earth screaming into the hell it craves and so richly deserved.



End….