Chapter 4

by Shattered Kitten

disclaimer- I do not own anything in the BTVS or AB worlds


Nathaniel walked out the front door, knowing Anita, his Nimra Ra was mad at him once again. Why couldn’t he be like Jason, self assured, proud, dependable and able to take care of himself. He hated this about himself, he was a useless member of the pard, one that had to have his hand held, the one that everyone always had to rescue. Shaking his head at his thoughts, knowing they meant nothing. Nathaniel got in the back seat of the jeep to wait. He watched as Anita practically stomped to the drivers side and flung open the door.
Starting up the jeep Anita shoved the jeep into gear, pulling out of the driveway. She looked through the rear view mirror at Nathaniel, He was slumped over trying to be as small as possible. She growled angrily watching Nathaniel’s big eyes shoot up at the sound. Anita sneared looking at him in the mirror and told him, “I am dropping you off at the circus to stay with Jason for a few days, we will talk when I get back.”
Nathaniel murmered “yes Ma’am,” slumping deeper in his seat.
The jeep pulled up in front of the Circus, Nathaniel silently slipped out shutting the door behind him. He watched as Anita drove off, silent screams echoing in his head. A lone tear falls down his cheek as he headed for the back door. Turning the knob and slowly opening the door with a creak he walked down the stairs and through the dark, winding corridors to Jason’s room lost in thought.
Jason turned as Nathanial entered the room and saw the look on his face and said, “Man, what’s wrong?”
Sniffling, and walking over to sit on the bed, Nathanial sighed, “I screwed up again and Anita had to come get me.”
“Damn, Nathanial, are you ever gonna learn? You can’t keep putting yourself into these positions, Jason exclaimed. “There will come a day when Anita won’t be able to pull you out.”
Hanging his head, Nathanial replied, “I know I’m worthless,” and dropped his head into his hands.
Jason came to sit by Nathanial’s side, pulling him into the comfort of his arms. “It will be ok Nate. Hey! You want something to eat? Let’s head down to the kitchen before I have to feed the big guy.”
Nathanial smiled softly composing himself as best he could and followed Jason to the kitchen silently.
Switching on the light and walking to the frig taking the handle and turned to Nathanial as he pulled it open. “So does a sandwich sound good? Or do you want an omelet?”
“You got any roast beef?” Nathanial asked shyly and sat at the counter watching quietly.
Smiling and digging in the refrigerator, “sure do man, what kind of cheese you want? Pepper jack or Swiss?” Jason began dragging out the roast beef, cheeses and mayonnaise placing them in front of Nate. After building their monster sandwiches they sat in silence, both lost in their own thoughts.
Lifting his head quickly realizing that Jean Claude was awakening, Jason hurriedly put the food away and said quickly, “hey Nate, just make yourself comfortable, I won’t be long and we will head off to Guilty Pleasures ok?”
With a silent nod, Nathanial watched as Jason left knowing that he would at least have someone to go to. He wondered sadly if Anita would ever truly love him enough, if he would ever be enough.

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